Faith is hard

‘Religion is something people invented to make them feel better about death’


‘Religious people are naive’


You might have heard something along these lines before.


If you’ve been here for a while, you’ll know that I’m a Christian. Recently, though, I’ve been struggling with it and I’ve had a lot of thoughts and questions running around in my head.


No matter how many times someone says to me, “God feels your pain” or “Lean on Him”, I still find it hard. This is coming from someone who, a few weeks ago, felt like they were in a good place with their faith and was taking steps forward and getting more involved. It’s not easy to have faith; it’s actually really difficult. Imagine putting all of your trust into something (someone) that you can’t see. Imagine relying on a single book – a big book but still, only one – for guidance about the situations you encounter in your life.


Despite everything that I’ve experienced in my life – and seen in others’, I’m still finding it hard to get myself back to the place I was in before. Even though it’s beginning to affect other areas of my life, I don’t feel motivated to try and understand my situation and look to God for help. That’s not to say that I don’t believe in Him; I believe that He’s responsible for placing me where I am now. It’s just to say that being religious is not just a label. It’s not just about believing in the existence of a higher being. It’s not naive. Religion is hard and it requires so much trust and effort in the same way that a human relationship does.


I feel that it would be wrong to end this post with no reference to the recent events. I don’t want to go into specific detail – because, if I’m being completely honest, I haven’t been following the news as closely as I probably should. What I really wanted to say is that it’s easy to get caught up in the blame game. The media know what they’re doing when they portray certain groups in certain ways or use particular words and photos to report a story. It’s so important to truly educate yourself on an issue before you can confidently make claims about it, otherwise, you’re essentially just making uneducated assumptions. With so much terror happening in the world, it makes no sense to add hatred on top of that. Go out and speak to people, educate yourself on what they truly believe and don’t let negative portrayals in the media or stereotypes and biases cloud your judgement.


I hope this makes sense – I don’t plan on reading it over. Hope everyone has/had a great Sunday!


Tidrah x

Everything is changing

I’ve had a blog for about 4 years now and I feel like I have struggled to keep up with it all.


I started blogging in December 2012 (when I was at the ripe old age of 14 – is that how you use that phrase?). When I first started, I was so naive about the idea of having a blog. I hadn’t fully grasped the effort that it would take and so, in 2014, I decided it was time to start again. This blog, itself, started on the 1st January 2014 as a way of turning a new page. Now, though, I feel like I’ve come full circle.


I don’t remember the last blog post I read or the last time I even posted myself. Honestly, I had started to lose sight of what my blog really was for me. I first started blogging because I thought it looked cool in the movies. I continued to blog because I’d found a community of people who were supporting me even though they didn’t even know who I was. That’s why I’ve decided to do things differently this time around.


I want you to get the chance to know me. I want to start again; from the beginning.


Rather than creating a whole new blog, I’m going to essentially ‘wipe the slate clean’. I’m making a start on making all of my past posts private and am even considering changing about the theme. I’m truly hoping that this is the change I need. I can’t promise that I’ll be posting regularly again – I can’t even confirm whether I will post again – but it’s worth a try, right?


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