Having a public blog where I post about the things that I do and think and feel means that you (whoever is reading this) are always on a journey with me.
You get to see me through my highs and through my lows. If you’ve been with me from the beginning, you’ll have seen how I’ve grown and changed over the years.
I haven’t blogged consistently for about a year now. I think this has a lot to do with the changes that I’ve experienced from doing my A-levels to starting university and becoming more independent. Now, at the end of my first year, I never imagined I would be in this position.
For personal reasons, I don’t want to go into detail but my faith has really been shaken. I think I mentioned in a previous post that I was really struggling and that hasn’t improved for me. Admittedly, I haven’t done anything to help myself but, now, I think I’m ready to start.
You may know about the story of Jesus calming the storm (if not, you can find it here – it’s really short, I promise). On the Sunday just gone, someone from my church was talking about how, even though the disciples were in the boat with Jesus, they were scared. In reality, being in that boat was the safest place that they could have been during the storm. A few months ago, I would confidently tell you that I was in that boat but, now, I’m not so sure.
I have spent a lot of time thinking in circles; going round and round only to end up in the same place that I started in. Finally, I feel like it’s time to stop making excuses and to start taking steps in the right direction. I want to be in ‘the boat’ and I would love it if you would stick around and join me on this journey I haven’t figured out exactly how I’m going to do it – and I still want to post things that don’t directly relate to religion – but this is (hopefully) my first step.
I have to be honest, it’s quite scary. I’m not the type who enjoys being open, it makes me feel vulnerable – which is another thing I don’t enjoy. So, I hope you’ll consider my invitation and stick around to support me through this journey.
P.s. Thank you to The Hope Girls for giving me the final push that I needed (: