Your belief vs. What you believe

Your belief vs. What you believe

I tried to make this title clever but now I’m afraid that it makes no sense and I have to explain it.


I love(d) talking about my faith with people. I loved when they asked me questions about things that I’d been to talks on and could give actual answers to. I loved when they asked about topics that I’d read and researched about. I loved when they asked about things that I’d had experiences with and so could talk about with emotional involvement.


There are some questions, however, that I find hard to answer because answering them feels like a conflict between what the Bible teaches (My belief; Christianity) and what I, myself belive.


Surely, the 2 should be in line? If I all myself a Christian, surely I should hold the same personal beliefs as the ones that are outlined in the Bible? And, yet, it’s not that simple.


Let’s take the ongoing debate about homosexuality in religion as an example. Me, myself, have no problem with homosexuality (I get angry when I hear people saying “God made Adam and Eve, not Adam and Steve” because I find that completely irrelevant) but a lot of people will argue that the Bible actually teaches against it. I’ve read a lot and watched quite a few videos on this – because of this conflict between my belief and my beliefs – only to find that people have been taking verses out of context and using them to push their homophobic beliefs. Even without that, I don’t feel like Christians should hate any group of people when we’re taught to love. This long winded explanation was essentially to say that it then becomes difficult when – in a conversation about faith – people ask me what my views are.


I, personally, don’t see it as unnatural but then surely I should explain what the Bible says also? As well as what I know about the context of the scriptures? But then there are other Christians who think differently, should I mention this point of view?


I know that I’m not a spokesperson for all Christians and I know the people I speak to know this too, but it doesn’t make it any easier. When it comes to something that can be so controversial within religion, it becomes difficult to know what to say- particularly when my knowledge on the subject is not the best.


Why should a loving God send people to Hell? I can give you a great explanation of this from a Biblical point of view. Yet, now, I struggle with that concept myself. I understand that God is just and that bad people shouldn’t be rewarded and that we were given free will and chose not to live a life with God. But I’m also taught that we should forgive and not hate but love and pray for our enemies. Think about it this way, say you have 5 children. 4 of them are angels, always eat their greens and go to bed on time, they never forget to say please and thank you. The final kid is the complete opposite and usually causes you a lot of stress. Now say you’re on a sinking ship and you can only save 4 kids. Would you save the 4 best behaved ones?


That’s wrong, no? All 5 of the are your children, surely, you love them all the same? This is where it becomes hard for me to accept things that go against my beliefs.


Last point before this gets too long. What’s the solution to this? Do I need to force myself to get my beliefs in line with what the Bible teaches? Or as I grow in my faith, will this come naturally?

Do I stick by what I feel and believe half-heartedly? Picking and choosing what and when I want to believe things?


I would love a conversation to flow out of this but this is mostly me trying to spill my thought out somewhere. I’ve asked a lot of questions that, if you feel you have an answer to, I’d love to get answered. I don’t want to be exclusive with this, either, I’d love anyone to feel like they can share their opinion here – I welcome them all (If you don’t feel comfortable commenting, you can always contact me by clicking the link on my name below)


I hope everyone has had an amazing week and enjoys the coming week!

Tidrah x

Faith is hard

Faith is hard

‘Religion is something people inventedĀ to make them feel better about death’


‘Religious people are naive’


You might have heard something along these lines before.


If you’ve been here for a while, you’ll know that I’m a Christian. Recently, though, I’ve been struggling with it and I’ve had a lot of thoughts and questions running around in my head.


No matter how many times someone says to me, “God feels your pain” or “Lean on Him”, I still find it hard. This is coming from someone who, a few weeks ago, felt like they were in a good place with their faith and was taking steps forward and getting more involved. It’s not easy to have faith; it’s actually really difficult. Imagine putting all of your trust into something (someone) that you can’t see. Imagine relying on a single book – a big book but still, only one – for guidance about the situations you encounter in your life.


Despite everything that I’ve experienced in my life – and seen in others’, I’m still finding it hard to get myself back to the place I was in before. Even though it’s beginning to affect other areas of my life, I don’t feel motivated to try and understand my situation and look to God for help. That’s not to say that I don’t believe in Him; I believe that He’s responsible for placing me where I am now. It’s just to say that being religious is not just a label. It’s not just about believing in the existence of a higher being. It’s not naive. Religion is hard and it requires so much trust and effort in the same way that a human relationship does.


I feel that it would be wrong to end this post with no reference to the recent events. I don’t want to go into specific detail – because, if I’m being completely honest, I haven’t been following the news as closely as I probably should. What I really wanted to say is that it’s easy to get caught up in the blame game. The media know what they’re doing when they portray certain groups in certain ways or use particular words and photos to report a story. It’s so important to truly educate yourself on an issue before you can confidently make claims about it, otherwise, you’re essentially just making uneducated assumptions. With so much terror happening in the world, it makes no sense to add hatred on top of that. Go out and speak to people, educate yourself on what they truly believe and don’t let negative portrayals in the media or stereotypes and biases cloud your judgement.


I hope this makes sense – I don’t plan on reading it over. Hope everyone has/had a great Sunday!


Tidrah x